Fake it until you make it!


Well this week ended up going pretty well. I saw a new primary Dr and what a difference compared to the last one I was stuck with. My last doctor was very ignorant and classless. This doctor is was a warm and compassionate doctor who listened to me which made me feel a lot more comfortable. It made a real difference. It had to be the most positive experience I have had in the medical field so far…..

I went there to try and rectify my insomnia . You know it was getting to the point where I was awake so many days in a row I could barely function. Its frustrating to try everything only to fail when it came to falling asleep at night. During the day I was spacey and forgetful and at night I tossed and turned. I could not anything done at all. My sense of humor was dwindling as well along with my patience…..

I don’t drink alcohol.

I don’t drink caffeine.

I exercise.

Go figure?

She prescribed Ambien. Now I know that Ambien is addictive yet I do not know how anyone could become addicted as for myself I can only take them every three or four  days or they will not work for me at all. I guess if I can sleep every 3 or 4 days I am going to have to take it…..

My insurance will not cover a sleep specialist which is what I really need so I am going to have to live with that for now. Needless to say I am not surprised as you only get good healthcare when you pay for it in the united states. Believe me after everything I have been through I know this to be a fact….

I also was prescribed Effexor which is helping with my stress and depression which has been haunting me for months. It is starting to slightly work and I know it takes time. I notice a drop in my anxiety. It is not as bad as before……

You know I have always hated meds yet I am at the point of my life where I have to just accept them to get over the challenges I am facing. I would not wish my problems on my worst enemy! One man I was talking to on Twitter asked me how I kept my sanity after he read all my blogs. I really did not have a good answer for him…..

I guess I am just faking it until I make it……..

Its the best advice I can give to someone who is struggling because after a while you get a glimpse of relief and happiness. You just have to fake it until you make it. The smallest victory feels like the greatest achievement after a while.

I promise it will happen if you at least try…..

Have a great day readers!!!!!








5 thoughts on “Fake it until you make it!

  1. I have sleeping problems often, too, so, my sympathies are with you! Thank you for sharing! I enjoy following your interesting, well written site!

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    1. Thank you so much. Yes sleeping problems can be hell!!


  2. I use essential oil blends to keep me on track. “Serenity” assists with sleep issues, when I have them. Meds and I have little use for one another. I do hope and pray you find that these meds don’t harm you.

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    1. I am very careful with them after that xanax incident. I do use essential oils as well.

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